Shame

I am disgusted with myself. I screamed and yelled horrible words at David last night. Not that he didn't have it coming. What disgusts me is I did this in front of Arden. I saw her cower below the coffee table while I screamed, "Stop talking to me! I hate you!" I was hysterical, throwing an adult temper tantrum. David yelled, too, although he said he didn't. I cried and dressed myself to leave for a while. Arden saw me crying and hugged me. She knew something was wrong. Children have a keen sense of emotions. She asked me, "Where are you going, Momma? Where are you going?" I told her I'd be back and left to clear my head.


Being two months pregnant doesn't help, but it's not an excuse. I told myself I would never scream and yell and fight in front of her. I did. Shame on me.